"It's okay." I dunno how many times I really say that in a day, but it's the one sentence I tend to say above all others. Anyday, everyday, for all sorts of reasons.
'I know this sucks, but can you cover for me..again?'
'I'm moving.'
'I'm only using you.'
'I talked shit about you, but I didn't mean it.'
'I know you wanted to do X but I want to do Y, so let's just do Y.'
'I really don't want anything to do with you anymore, no reason. just done.'
'I spilled bag milk all over the floor, will you clean it up for me so I can do other things to fuck up the store? Spill pretzel butter everywhere, perhaps?'
'I was never into you, I just led you on.'
'Oh, you aren't easy and willing to have sex with me when I snap my fingers? see ya!'
'Im going to borrow your favorite books and not worry about you missing them.'
etc. so on and so forth. It's getting re-fucking-diculous. But I always say, "no, no, it's okay." and usually with a big, fake smile so they know I mean it. *sigh*
I know..that it's my own fault. Trust me, I know. I just havnt had my kindness taken advantage of so frequently in such a short abount of time...ever. And by people I trust--I think that's the worst part of it..and the part that's bothering me so much.
People telling me that I should be more open and trusting..and then pulling the shit that they have been lately. Really!? Let me just raise a finger to those people (I think you can figure out which digit I'm refering to). I don't even have time for this. i have a book to finish and two finals to study for...and my eye keeps twitching.
