Henry Taylor's "Barbed Wire"

Great poem. Really sums up the past few days for me. I can't really explain why, though. So I've been hurt, yet again, by another friend. Let's just lay this out.
This week, my parents left for a week for their anniversary, and I become homesick extremely easily. I can't help it. I become depressed, get sick easily and act irritable and child-like. I don't know why, I just do. And it's horrible. Sooo I asked my friend to come stay with me. I never ask my friends to stay the night. but of course, no she can't. because she's working for 8 days and doing long shifts. This probably wouldn't bother me so much had she not found her 'soul mate' and neglected me since I had come back on the first. But that's unfair--I've been pulling away from her. Why? because she's too busy with her 'soul mate' to do anything with me. on top of that, when we talk, her sentences are flavored with "You don't understand!" constantly repeated (about subjects in which I do have empathy for her). Have I explained through examples how much saying 'you dont understand' to me pisses me off? why yes, I certainly have. So I called my parents in tears (yes, I know how pathetic that is, but fuck off) and explained the whole situation since..I don't want to start drama with the other people involved between us and my brother was out with his friend. so I have today and tomorrow to calm down and relax. except not because I have a shit ton of homework already. thank you, professors. you guys rock at controlling my free time!!

Porphyria's Lover

For almost a month now, I've found that someone has rediscovered something for me. my first thought was to torture the fuck out of him like he did me..but I'm not like that and can't honestly bring myself to do it. Is it so wrong to want to do it though? I know it is, but Im going to lie to myself and say it's healthy. ha. anyways..it's not my fault that he got trashed and emailed me his feelings. Of course it did depress me at first, knowing that six years of emotion was wasted and now that I know I feel nothing past friendship, he wants more. seriously? lame.
he "needs to move past me." Well, let me just say..he wasnt even that awesome of a boyfriend...and I was a good girlfriend to him. so I hope it all equals out. I know that's harsh, but karma.