I need to stop reading and play more video games

I've decided to make a real post due to the fact that...This morning has been quite a morning. So I wake up at 3:30 due to a nightmare about zombies trying to eat Gabriel (my brother) and myself. I really need to stop reading zombie books. So I lay in bed till close to four, listening for the impending moan from my undead assailants...because I'm still too tired to use common sense and too freaked out to fall back asleep.
That's when I hear the noises.

It sounds like thumping and scratching on the outside of the house. I tell myself it's just the cats...because that's logical, right? ...So I creep down the hallway with the only weapon I can find in my room, a pen. How wonderfully Cait, I know. (Eye roll) Anyways, I creep down the hall to find both cats passed out on the couch. No one in the house awake besides me, and, from what I can see, nothing outside.

By this time, I'm completely awake, so I opt for a shower and then some Invader Zim before work. Upon my exit from the shower, Cheese is frantically running from the living room to the entrance, looking out the windows. Annnnd I'm in game mode again. Cause I rock. I look outside to find the one responsible for all this trouble. God damnit.

Annnd the raccoons are back. awesome.

Fractions

We stand outside in the night air,
The three of us.
Two inhaling sweet smoke into our lungs.
Two feeling hurt and confused.
Two just trying to solve a problem.
In each equivalent, one oblivious.

How did I mistrust one?
How did I not meet one sooner?
The yellow night lamp matches the moon.

We stand together,
Like three stars in the same galaxy.
Close enough to know,
Far enough to not understand.
And I can't stop thinking about him,

Wondering where I messed up.
Was it when I held his hand?
Was I too girly?
Or was I too myself?
They laugh,
And I forget to laugh with them,
Like I'm not zoned out.
I smile.
I’m still here with them.

Was it when I sat so close to him?
I could use another drink.
So we go inside.
The three of us.
Two having a bud.
Two feeling defeated.
Two trying to find a solution.
In each equivalent, one oblivious.

get your umbrellaaa!!

yaaay emo

From Under the Street Lamp

His eyes find mine,
And I have nowhere to hide.
I’m stuck, sitting in a corner,
As he interrogates my existence here.
I’m like a moth stuck in his spider’s web.
My stomach is turning,
And I’m questioning why I’m here
in the back of my head.
My wings flutter frantically,
As eight legs move his fangs closer.
I stutter out words,
Unsure of the effect they have on my listener.
Isn’t there a hole I can crawl in?
Fangs sink into my flesh,
Sucking out emotion until I’m a vacant corpse
Just hanging in the spider’s web.

don't take this the wrong way

I didn’t mean to surprise him

A flow of happy and anxious fluids rise within me
As he stumbles through the door.
I try to push them down,
But he has this effect on me.

Even after all this time.

I try not to talk too much.
I know how I get around him.
Try to be cool, calm, collected.
Don’t be a dork.
He still looks handsome;
Good thing I decided on make up this morning.

My face burns as I reply to his questions.
And I realize he doesn’t feel the same emotion,
Not even a little bit.

Safe Haven

He holds out his arms,
Inviting my body towards his.
I let out a held breath,
As his arms wrap around my shoulders.

I feel the stubble on his chin
Even through my hair.
And his necklace feels cool
Against my burning cheek.

My eyes closed,
I feel safe here.
Just stay like this a moment longer.
God, please don’t let this end.

But he lets go

And with a wink, walks away.
And I’m left wanting more.

Watching Shooting Stars from Mercury

I want it to rain glitter,
And we’ll twirl through the clouds,
While you whisper up my jaw line
Sweet words of forever.
We’ll live like galaxies,
With star dust on our skin.
We can walk on the rings wrapping planets,
And gaze on what we’ve left behind.
We can sit in silence,
And watch the planets swirl by.
As you hold my hand,
Cause it’s just us now.